I am new to this whole “blogosphere” thing, so hopefully this works.
I have wanted to blog for awhile now, but have never seemed to find the time to do it. What got me to do it today? I was asked by Dar. So now I find another good reason to start writing, reading and responding. Time is somewhat of an issue with me right now. I am trying to juggle two ministries and a job. I have never been in a situation like this before and I am finding myself drained yet excited. For the past few months I have been trying to get used to getting up at 5am/4am and be a somewhat productive person throughout the day into ministry activities at night. I find that I am still a zombie by 10pm, but doing better…I no longer need an afternoon nap.
While reading Mobilized Weakness by Mark Bair, the realization that I am on the edge of being burnt out smacked me in the face. I brought this realization up in cell group. Before I read that, I guess I hadn’t really thought about it, I would just get really stressed, deal with it and get over it. No conclusions were ever made. But after reading that, I saw the trap that Satan was setting up for me. He wanted to see is I was going to rely on God and prioritze, or rely on myself and cave in. This is when I decided to take action and get into prayer more often about this. I am still in the process of prayer and adjustment. Most of the time I am happy and convicted but there are still moments (especially during WORD or in LTC) when things seem so chaotic and like my brain is going to explode from stress.
I know that there are a lot of people out there that are just as busy if not more than I (being at home only one night a week, maybe two if REALLY lucky). It can seem like you can get nothing done and that you only have the capacity to do things at 56%. It has been really hard to juggle discipleship inductives, cell group readings/studyings, LTC homework and studying, and now adding WORD cell group teachings. Trying to squeeze all this into one night a week and maybe a few spread out hours throughout the week. Anyone in this position: insight would greatly be appreciated.