It’s hit or miss time with this Ministry House. All of us who are moving out have the money in hand and finally have a nice little house in Kent picked out. Sunday is the day we sign our names to the lease.
At the beginning of this adventure, I was scared shit less. Even though I have been looking forward to this ever since I found out about Ministry Houses after I became a Christian. It just was so different than what I was used to, and a ton more responsibility. It’s interesting because I was reading Katey Downs’s blog about phleg’s and how their dominating emotion is fear. At first I didn’t think that was right, I was all like, “Fear? Me? Ya Right! I’m big, bad Justin!”
The more I thought about it, the more I realized that it was actually fairly accurate. Heh, even now I’m still a bit nervous. A lot of my fear has been killed by me realizing that if I rely on myself for all of this new responsibility, I’ll end up dying of stress by the end of the year, but I should rely on God for all of this, because it is in his will, and he wants to help us. This reminds me of this verse from Luke 12:24-25
“Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life’s span? ”
This is a really good verse, especially for fearful, worrying phlegs like me. I especially like how he ends that verse. It’s verses like these that I need to focus on when I’m feeling fearful.
Instead of fear, now I’ve been feeling excitement. I’ve been really excited for this Ministry House, because I know it will not only make it, but flourish with God and his help. I’ve been realizing that I need to quit being so fearful and step out in faith in God.